I am

I am the white knight I seek.
No damsel in distress I.
No fairy tale endings or beginnings nigh.

I am the tall handsome cowboy, scuffed boots, tough tender hands.
Giddy up y’all.
Save a horse and all that jazz.

I am my guardian angel.
Golden-winged, ever-powerful, watchful soft eyes.
Angels all we.
I have no monopoly.

I am my happily-ever-after.
I am the answer to all my dreams.
I am the with all, be all, end all.
I am the One I seek and the One I seek is I.

Pump up the volume.

Thy Will Be Done

30 September 2017
Mesilla Valley Hospital
Las Cruces, New Mexico

Dear God,

Please help me find my way.

Please help me see a bright and beautiful future filled with Your Love.

Please help me be a beacon of Your Love and spread It wherever Roan and I go.

Please give me hope, purpose, and a vision of a world filled with Your Love.

Please support and love me all the days of my Life.

Please be with me always.

Please Love me always.

Please help me always.

Please and thank you.

Thy Will Be Done.

With Love and Thanks, I AM,

Elizabeth Carmel

Dear God

11 September 2017 – 8:18 PM

Dear God, Divine Mother/Father/Son as One. Please hear my prayer.

Please heal me in all ways. I am imperfect and am sorry for all the mistakes I have made and will continue to make. I am heartfully sorry. I know nothing. I have been arrogant and judgmental. I bow before Thee and trust that You will heal all my many afflictions. Please and thank you.

Mother Mary with me at the Mayo Clinic, 9 September 2017
Mother Mary with me at the Mayo Clinic, 9 September 2017.  This statue is from Rome, Italy.  I retrieved it from my parents’ home during the estate sale.

Dear Mother Mary — Divine Mother — Please cradle me as a child in your Arms and Heart. Please support me and Love me no matter what. Please watch over me. Please do not abandon me. I am a small, scared child. Please comfort me.

I have made many mistakes. I know that I do not know. Please make not knowing OK to me. I do not need to know. I do not want to know. Please only show me the next step on my path of service to You and to ALL.

Please fill my heart with Your Love so that I am not afraid.

Please give me Your Peace.

Please always be with me.

Please Angels — Please Angels walk with me. Please help me find the way. Please help me find the best way I can to serve You and All Humanity and Mother Earth and ALL.

Please make my mind calm and empty and at peace and content with Your Will.

Please wipe my tears away and the tears of all who suffer. Please comfort those who suffer, me included because I am suffering. Please lift this burden off my Heart. Please show me Thy Mercy and Forgiveness for I have sinned a lot in my pride.

I know nothing.
I am nothing except Your Divine Creation.
Please help me serve You in LOVE.
Thy Will be done.

Please help me be a better person.
Please heal me.
Please heal me.
Please heal me.
You know best what I need and I trust You implicitly.

Please help me stand in LOVE and be not afraid even when I’m in pain.

Please take the pain from me if that is for The Highest Good.

I am here to serve You. Please help me when I am weak and falter. Please help this poor, weak one. I need help. I am not all powerful. You Are. I am an imperfect Being who needs Your Divine Help. I am not perfect. I am cracked and broken. Please help me put the pieces back together. Please heal my Heart, my Head, my Soul, my Body — all that I AM.

Please and thank you.

I have fallen.
Please help me.
Please pick me up, dust me off, and put me back on the road.

Please help me Serve You.

Please envelop me in Your Love and Forgiveness so that I may forgive and love myself and others.

Please heal my broken heart if that is Your Will. If not, please give me the strength to prevail.

Please give me Peace now and always. Please give me Peace. Your Peace.

With Love and Thanks, I AM your Humble Servant,

Elizabeth Carmel Xavier Battocletti

Angel wisdom

22-23 July 2017

Mother and child

1. Follow the path of least resistance.

2. No backup plan. You don’t need it. Based on fear. But sometimes a backup plan is a good strategy.

3. Don’t need a PLAN B. Plan A is good. Think strategically.

4. Don’t need the best. Good enough is good enough.

5. Perfection is highly overrated. We’re all perfect in our imperfection for anything that the Divine Creator made could be nothing but perfect.

6. You’re perfect just the way you are. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise and if they do, tell them to fuck off. 🙂

7. Follow your heart always. It’ll never steer you wrong. Try to minimize the number of decisions you make based on fear.

8. Always leave ’em on a high note.


9. If you don’t feel good, if you’re in a bad mood, stay in your room until you feel better.

10. When you have to make a decision ask yourself “Am I making this decision based on fear?” If the answer is “Yes,” it is the wrong decision. Decide again.

11. Wait for the magic to happen and believe that it will.

12. You got this thing called “Life.” Don’t waste time worrying about what could happen — it doesn’t change anything. Either it’ll happen or it won’t. Period. Despite free will, some things are etched in stone and cannot be changed despite your wishes.

13. Don’t be afraid — there’s that word again — to ask for help. People like to be asked for their help. It’s a two-sided gift that benefits the helper as much as the help-ee (Is that even a word?).

14. If you don’t like the game, either stop playing or start a new game. It takes at least two to play a game. If one person stops, the game ends.

15. You are the ultimate authority on you. Do not give your power away to anyone.

16. “Life” is a lucid dream. Wake up and smell the coffee.

17. Fear is not real. It’s all in your head.


18. Always move forward. Don’t look back. Say what’s in your heart and have no regrets.

19. People like to be right. The secret is that everyone can be right. All points of view are equally valid. The “truth” is relative to where you stand or sit or jump around like a Mexican or any other nationality jumping bean. (Do beans really jump? Oh yeh, now I remember — there’s a worm inside there, right? Note to self: Google this or not. Does it make any difference? No.)

20. If Ignorance = Bliss and Bliss = The Attainment of Childhood Dreams then…Ignorance = The Attainment of Childhood Dreams.

I know too much.

You don’t have to be a know-it-all. People don’t like a know-it-all even if you do know it all. Open ears, close mouth.

21. Give someone else a chance to shine. If you know the answer, you don’t always have to raise your hand or shout it out. Let someone else do that. Everyone gets there in their own special way and it’s all good and it’s all Divine Perfection.

22. Knowing too much can be injurious to your health.

23. Leave ‘em laughing.

24. Don’t spoil the ending. People like plot twists and a surprise ending.

25. People are suckers for a tear-jerker. Don’t know why. Boy meets girl, girl meets boy. Too little, too late. No — not too little, just too late.

26. Her timing always sucked although she was a phenomenal interpretive dancer — just ask the folks at LoW-HI RV Ranch, David and Laura’s wedding reception, or the 30-somethings at the Toad that night with Jerry.  She could really feel the music and move her body to the rhythm.

She often spoke without thinking which she thought was charming and sincere but others found obnoxious and overbearing,

Black-white magic

27. Sometimes it’s harder to receive love than to give it. My good friend Alfredo tells me that the secret is letting go of control: “When you let go of having to control everything,” he says, “that’s when you’re in control” which seems like a contradiction to me and an illogical loop but you get the point. It’s when you give up control that the magic can happen.



30. Cynicism is an amusing yet unattractive quality. Open your mind to ALL possibilities because ALL possibilities are possible.


32. People are afraid of death for several reasons. First, they’re afraid it’s going to hurt. Don’t worry — it doesn’t. You just float up and out of your body, leaving the pain behind.

Second, they’re afraid of leaving their loved ones behind and causing them pain.

Third, they’re afraid of dying alone. You’re never alone even when you think you’re alone. Angels are always at your shoulder. They’ve got your back and are at your sides — left, right, and center. Ten hut!

People like to know what’s going to happen. It’s odd — we like surprises — surprises are fun except when it comes to our death. There we want to know and why? So that we can prepare ourselves and choose how we spend our final days. We want to be with those we love those final days, and them us.

We want to die “surrounded by our friends and family.” Such a comforting thought, to die holding the hand of the person who loves us most. Ah, close eyes and exhale on a light, airy cloud of LOVE. A gift to both.

33. Possibilities are Infinite.

34. Step outside the box.

35. Everybody can be right at the same time. (See 19 above.)

Going home

36. Everyone’s opinion is valid and should be listened to. You don’t know it all even though you think you do. You may know more or less than another but no one knows IT ALL (Not even you, Elizabeth Carmel).

37. Before you jump to conclusions, get all the facts. Base your decision on complete data.

38. Open your eyes to the wonder around you. Smile often and openly at strangers. Look in their eyes. Despite the common lore, eye contact is not a challenge unless of course it is aggressive. Soft eye contact with love — soul to soul — tells people that you really see them and people like to be seen.

39. Listen to people. Really listen. People like to be seen and heard as Oprah wisely said. She knows.


41. Science and Art are equally valued on the Other Side. They complement each other. As long as they’re in balance and respect each other, all is well and the sky is NO LIMIT.

42. Gifts are made to be shared. Not sharing your special gifts is an affront to the Divine Creator (GOD TO ME!).

43. If you make something beautiful, share it with people. People find great joy in beautiful things, hence the attraction of flowers, sunsets and rises, all of Mother Earth. Share the beauty that only you as a Unique Soul can create.

44. Sometimes silence is golden. Sometimes it’s rust. Learn to know the difference. Learn to know when to speak and when to be silent. (It’s not compromising your integrity young lady, it’s just being smart and often minimizes tension and conflict which is always a good thing.)

As above so below

45. Love your brother, sister, dog, cat, plant, rock, et al — ALL CREATION — AS YOURSELF BECAUSE ALL IS ONE.


47. Use discernment. Your Heart knows best.

48. Karma’s a load of crap. It’s just part of THE GAME. Sadistic chap who created it.


50. IT AIN’T OVER TILL IT’S OVER. Don’t jump ahead.

51. You know your body and mind better than anyone else. Don’t let the “experts” tell you otherwise. When it comes to you, you are the ultimate authority.

52. Denial and sacrifice only serve to boost the ego. Oh, look how strong, how pious, how good I am! Avoid them at all costs. Unless your actions will hurt another, if it feels good, do it.

53. Never forget how to play. Play often and with gusto.

54. Love your neighbor. Love everyone for that matter but especially those who live nearby. This creates a pocket of love and goodwill. The pockets spread and glow green and bright.

Note to Self
Note to Self


Just love. Who you are. What you are. Where you are.

JUST FUCKING LOVE IT ALL, “WARTS” AND ALL. Warts don’t really exist hence the quotation marks. (Thanks, I got that Dad.) 🙂

56. Don’t give your power away to anyone or anything, including NUMEROLOGY (although numbers are cool). PSYCHICS — no one can “read” the future because it hasn’t been written yet. You write your life every second a word, every day a paragraph, every year a chapter — until at the end you have a glorious tale of:

– suspense
– love
– intrigue
– surprises
– plot twists
– comedy
– ups and downs

But angel numbers are real.



57. YOU ARE YOUR WORD. HONOR IT. But don’t judge others if they change their minds. You don’t know what’s going on with them and why should it matter to you if they change their minds.

58. What other people say or do, unless it harms another, is none of your fucking business. Don’t let it bother or concern you because it doesn’t fucking matter. Really, it doesn’t. Trust us, we know. (Yes, we do!)

Despite what we said about know-it-alls, some are more accurately called know-mores or know-closer-to-it-alls or know-half-of-it-alls, or whatever fraction you’d like to use.

** Now the real fun begins. You’re invincible kid and that ain’t no joke. Have fun out there, seriously, we mean it. Have a fucking blast.

59. You don’t have to figure it out all at once. You can figure it out in pieces. Don’t jump ahead. Have the patience to get there step-by-step in a calm, centered, and grounded way.


60. Don’t let your emotions carry you away unless it’s LOVE. LOVE can carry you anyplace it fucking wants to. (You do like to swear, don’t you. Yes, indeed I do. I find it adds dramatic flair!)

61. Life is one big lucid dream.

62. Sometimes what you are looking for was right in front of you and you didn’t realize it until it was gone.

63. I don’t want to be told to be quiet. I found my voice again and I’m not going to squelch it ever again.

64. It’s all about the closure. Everyone wants closure.

65. We’re all just doing our best. Give people the benefit of the doubt.


Three as One

The Heart
The Heart

The Heart knows.

The Head begs to differ and not at all respectfully.

The Heart says: Let’s stay. We can be happy here.

The Head says: Let’s keep moving. There’s more around the next corner. There’s gotta be.

The Heart says: Let’s put down roots and call this place “home.”

The Head says: Are you crazy? Commit? Why on Earth would you want to settle here of all places? We’re rolling stones, remember? Just look down. See the wheels? Wheels are made for rolling.

The Heart says: I’m tired of rolling. I just want to stay put for a while. We can still wheel along, just in smaller doses.

The Head
The Head

The Head says: But we can’t afford it, remember?  We’re poor, remember? No cash flow, remember?

But the Heart says: We have more than enough and you know it. And the cash flow will come. We’re building our future, a piece at a time.

But the Head says: I want our future built right now! I want to know how everything will turn out right now! I want! I want!! I want!!!  Wah!!!

And the Heart says: Calm down dear Head.  This is what I want — no — this is what we need.  And you know it.

Head: But what if we fall?
Heart: But what if we fly?
Head: But what if we’re wrong?
Heart: But what if we’re right?

The Head says: I’m afraid.

The Heart says: Come here so I can give you a big hug. Believe in The Love.

The Head says, bowing to the Heart: I believe in The Love. Let’s do this.

The Soul
The Soul

And then the Soul chimes in, throwing a monkey wrench into the mix:

Well, I want to fly, to be free and unencumbered, to come and go at will. No ties, no commitments, no nada. I want to be able to move at a moment’s notice — anytime, day or night. Now you see me, now you don’t. That’s what I want so deal with it.

The Head and Heart look at each other, not at all pleased with Soul’s intrusion. They thought they had this all figured out but now what?

And so a quandary is born.

But not really.

Compromise, my dear Heart, Head, and Soul.

We can do it all and then some.